Friendship

It's a kinda fun that i have been spending time reading my friends' blog as they have started writing it again. It is great that beside staying connected on a surface daily communication through facebook, i could actually have some ideas of whats going through their mind by reading their blogs.

I always feel touched and blessed everytime I think of how we found each other in this big big world as Hour calls it a "miracle". There are really times that i wish they had been born to my sisters and brothers so that we would stay closer no matter what!

Nothing lasts forever. Everything has to come to an end sooner or later so does our friendship. But if you are committed to make it last later, very later in life, I AM IN!

Miss you guys!!!

Here i come, blogspot

I dun remember the last time i wrote something here. It should be something around more than half a year ago. In between, lots of things happened to me which i never told you, blogspot.

It was the transitional stage in my life. I suddenly decided to give up my single life and got married, which was a surprise, indeed for all friends and relatives. It was a quick decision but I had all the reasons in the world to do so.

It is great that I learnt, and i am still learning to live this life to the best I can for myself and for the my loved ones. Life as a single man and life as a married man. There is a huge difference. There are more roles, expectations and responsibilities. I have to give up, more or less, myself, my friends, and my family. You sometimes go through this emotional stage that could cause tears.

I am happy with what I chose to do and I'll keep fighting for what is right.

See you later, blogspot!

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Brotherhood

This morning when i dropped my sis in law at the bus stop, something just hit my heart when she waved good bye to me with my little nephew in her arm. It reminded me about 10 years ago when her husband, my brother, dropped me at the bus stop at the province.

I remember I left my family when i was 13 or 14 living with my grandmother in PP. My brother was living with me for a while to do some of his studies in the capital city. But then he got a job back home in Kampot, and that was when i was left living alone with my grandma.

It was so hard for me when he left after all of those years living with me. He was all i have. I didn't have any close friends or a girlfriend. We spent most of the weekends together going to concert, swimming at the stadium and sometimes singing.

I remember i rarely visited home in Kampot as i was busy with my studies and to avoid spending much on traveling back and ford. But every time i did, my brother was always the one who took me to the bus stop. I remember he would reach for his pockets and search for those few tens thousands for me. " Study hard, bro!" He would advice.

I would cry looking out the window when the bus drove off. I would look back at him until he was out of sight and kept sorbbing along the way until i fall asleep.

10 years on, a lot of things have changed. He got married to a very understanding and loving wife with one kid. I grew up to be who i am today. But something will never change in my heart, the love, care and forgiveness he once had for me.

Episode 3

Nick asked the detective to leave him alone with his son who was still in critical condition. He held his hand and asked him to move his fingers if he could hear him. But the fingers didn't move. Nick told his unconscious son how sorry he was and how much he loved him, his brother and his mother.
Things moved up to this point, Nick thought there was no justice. This is not fair, he thought.

Knock, knock, knock, the door opened, the detective found that Nick was gone! The revenge went on!

Nick withdrew most of his money from the bank, and managed to buy some machine guns. He shaved his hair and dressed up like one of those city dogs. He was looking for those gangs one by one.

Finally, the debt was paid! The gangs and the big brother were killed. Nick gave in and was arrested. " Your son wakes up and is able to move his fingers". Said the detective.

.......

Continued from the previous post..

Nick was acting strangely at home after that court. He didn't tell his family what he was trying to do. He found a knife, as sharp the one used by the gang to cut his son's neck. He was tracing the city dogs and managed to kill the gang by stabbing him at the chest. The debt was paid. He couldn't believe he did it, killing a person. He was scared and suspected, and questioned by the police.

But the war didn't stop there as he knew it. The city dogs wouldn't let Nick get away with it. They followed him and tried to kill him, but luckily he survived and actually killed another dog in the fight. Nick was well aware that he was in great danger. But it was not only him, the gangs have threatened to kill his wife and his only left son. He finally admit to the police and was seeking for some protection from the authority. Yet, you know how these gangs are like. You dun wanna mess around with them under no circumstances. The two policemen who had been guarding around Nick's house were killed before Nick could realize it. The danger is coming. Now Nick's, his wife and son's lives are in their hand of the city dogs. Bang! Bang! Bang!

Nick woke up and found himself in the hospital guarded by the police. Luckily that the gangs didn't make sure they had died. The detective told him that they were not protecting him but preventing him from dying coz he would go straight to jail once he got recovered. Nick no longer cared about his life. He regreted and was so so sorry for his family.

To be continued.....

My worthwhile lunch break

Yesterday during my lunch time, i was watching a movie, a violent one, on Star World. It was one of the most interesting violent movies I've seen. I didn't manage to catch its title as it was already started when i turned on the TV.

Well...here it goes. There is a Nick family with two sons. Unfortunately, Nick had his older son, his most beloved one, killed in a gas station by a group of city gangsters who must kill somebody at times only to prove their cruelty as a gang. There were a few of them getting out of the car, masked and were running towards the station mart. They shot dead the cashier and when seeing Nick's older son was standing there looking for something, the gang leader ordered his followers to get his Nick's son's head cut off. One of them did finally.

I could feel how painful it was to Nick seeing his beloved son killed in such a cruel and inhuman manner. He managed to chase the killer and got to see his face. It was until a few days later when Nick found out from the detective that his son got randomly killed by a group of city dogs, (thats what they called it), who were practicing their wildness and proving their cruelty by killing.

Later, the killer was sent to the court, but disappointedly that Nick, who was the only eye witness at the scene, denied that he made a mistake and he could not remember the killer.

The Judge then officially announced the innocence of the killer and ordered that he shall be released........

...............to be continued......................

Miss

Hello Blog,

I know i have left you alone for quite sometime now...feeling like missing you today....but i dun have anything much to say now, reallly..hope you can stay happy without me updating you...

miss,

LONELINESS

During this lunch time, i was browsing around at my friends' blogs to see what has been up with them personally. And to my surprise, i have studied that now more of them are or have been in a state of loneliness. I thought i was the only one who has been suffering from that sickness for all this long, but now i realize i am not the only.

After reading their posts, i must admit that it actually added more sadness on top of my not happy feelings. At times, while walking in shopping malls, or frequently driving on the streets with the music on, i feel like i am the loneliest and the most broken hearted man in the entire world. I mean those songs can easily break your heart and kill your soul. There are times when want to ring my friends up, but something would stop me, maybe they are busy?

I kinda agree with those who say having a bf or gf could be a good solution to this illness. From my friends' statistics, it shows that 3 out of 4 ( Ven, Hour, Rithy, except Tha) of those who don't have a girl friend feel lonely when they are free or they simply need some sort of care from the others. On the other hand, from my own experience and a research study on my frind about his couple life, the finding indicates that rarely he would feel lonely or anything exept when having argument with his girlfriend.

Guys, the singles, i am looking forward to seeing your girl friends very soon. I dont want all of you to experience the suffering from those loneliness. I mean come on, you cant take it very seriously and you never know if it will be a serious one.

Little bit of my update

Its been a while since I last updated my blog. I am sure those who regularly read my posts might wonder where i have been. I haven't been anywhere. There are reasons for my absence.First of all, i just have nothing in particular to post. Yet, after being away for a while, i realize i miss blogging. Second, i have recently been so into facebook and i guess i find it more exciting and pretty much more convenient in terms of faster communication and networking, and most of the time, you dun have to have anything in particular to say on facebook.

well...Lots of things happened to me, all for the good i think. A few days a go, i received a phone call from the University of Cambodia (UC) imforming me that i had been selected. That was not that much to be happy for but at least it had been something for me to look forward to for quite sometime. Another thing is that i had been preparing for an exchange program with 9 Japanese university students from Yamaguchi University. That was an tiring task i guess since i did most of the preparation job. At the same time, however, it was such an important experience for me. Its all over now. Everyone was happy and had great fun from both our side and the Japanese side.

I have been pretty much active recently coz i feel i am not done with the life of learning. I know i still have much more out there to explore and at the same time i always want to have something to look forward to in every single stage of my life.

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Something to look forward to

After dropping my CV asking for a position as a teacher of English at the University of Cambodia (UC) for several months, i finally received a phone call requesting me to go and sit for a writing test.

So off i went for the test with some other candidates the next day. Surprisingly, i knew a few of them who are also from IFL. Socheat, who was my year four classmate, was also there sitting for the test.

We were required to sign before taking the test. By looking at the attendant list, i realized that i was facing a great competition considered that every candidate except one is from IFL and they are actually pursuing MA in TESL at IFL. One among them got a Master in IT from Thailand. OMG!

For a moment, i thought my dream of becoming a teacher again could be ruined by these guys. I was nervous i guess.

Last night I called Mrs. Rathana, one of the staff at UC administration office for some info about the test result. But she said there was nothing i could do but to wait for the phone call next week if i was to be qualified for the next and perhaps the last step, the interview.

I thought, ok, at least i have something to look forward to...........................

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In the office, all by myself

Today, just like the other day, that i am here in the office alone. Most of my core workers have gone to a three day GIS training. In fact, i was also interested in this training but then its far too irrelevant to my field, and as far as the training organizer is concerned, there is a limited number of trainees who have been invited. So...i thought staying in the office alone doing something little thing wouldn't hurt.

But i guess i was wrong. It is almost impossible for me to work alone now. I mean its so deadly quiet. Normally i would have some of them who joke and laugh around to brighten up the environment. Now without them, i am feeling like i have been left alone in this cold cold world.

To make the situation worse, none of my friends show up online today. I wonder where they all have gone. Why wouldn't they be here when i need them the most.

What if there is no tomorrow

Guys, this is too crazy to imagine that what if there is no tomorrow. Have you guys ever thought what you would do if tomorrow never comes.

Tell me your thoughts. You can actually prioritize the things you would want to do.....

Some Pictures During my Mission to Provinces

Koh Kong Bridge. The first time i got to cross
this longest bridge in the country. The funny
thing about crossing this bridge is that the
travellers are charged based on the the number
of wheels of the their vehicles. Since we only had
four wheels, so they charged us 4400 riels.


New Bridge is under construction by Chinese
construction company, Mondulkiri.





My transportation, Toyota Hilux 1994, to Mondulkiri.
Still remember how scary it was sitting in the passenger
seat when the driver told us he could hardly see the
road due to the heavy fox.




Wild deer captured and being taimed by villagers,
Kratie.




Beng Kan Seng, Ratanakiri, where we spent our
night in the near by hotel.

Feeling Tired

I don't know why lately i have been feeling so tired at work, physically and emotionally. I mean i hate the fact that i have to work and push some people here in order to get my needed documents. They are the most irresponsible people in the whole world. I guess they never read their email even almost always i must send them a reminder text message from my phone to remind them to open their email right after i have sent them an email. I guess still they never do until i give them another follow up call. At times i really want to give thinking that me alone can't change the world. Everytime they come up with accuses complaining they have loads and loads to do and asking to delay the deadline to the next and the next......

One more thing that upsets me and has been making me tired is the team spirit here. They really need to work on that. I mean even in a team they are seperated into many sub groups seeking for diffrent interests. This is not going to work well in a long run. Personally, i belong in a group which is the most hated one i guess- Finance Team. This all has to do with money. They never want to spare a cent if they can claim for more. I mean they don't realize how hard it could be for finance team when being questioned about inappropriate expenses when it comes to auditing.

Sorry guys, this is another headache to share.....hope you dont mind reading...

S21 Visit

Last two weeks, as convinced by Mol, Ven and I finally made her dream of visting S21( known as Kok Toul Sleng or Toul Sleng Prison) come true. There were only the three of us since Nory could not manage to come along. I remember it was a horribly hot day as we were driving along the streets in Ven's car towards the former Khmer Rouge Prison which is somewhere not far from one of our friends' house.

Once arrived at the site, Mol told us that she felt somehow unconfortable and at the same time she was full of excitement as well as horror as she was expecting to see something she had always wanted to see for all her life. As for Ven and I, nothing hardly scare us coz it was not our first time to arrive at the site. To me in particular, I felt fresh this time. By fresh I mean i no longer imagine what the atmosphere of this prison was like during 3Y8M20D of Pol Pot regime when seeing the buildings, the walls and the skulls of the dead. I don't know why i felt so. But you may not believe it that the first time i was here i could feel and smell the spirits of those who were tortured and killed here.

S21 Prison or Kouk Toul Sleng

You also may not believe who we met here.

This old man is one of a very few of those who

survived from this hell of S21. He told us alot

about how he was tortured as a S21 prisoner.

I think i am very lucky to meet this 79 year old

S21 survivor. From his description of the regime

i think i have learnt some more of what i didn't

know.

20/06/2009

Don't know what to write really after being gone for quite a while. Let this be a message to you guys that now i get access to internet at my work place as usual. So that basically means that i will keep updating my blog and replying your emails as much as my time limits me to.

Meanwhile, whats up with me??? Again, still busy with work especially within this month with Audit thing. To think of it could give me a headache. I have been traveling a lot lately nationwide. I look pretty much older and weaker now, as much as my friends are concerned. Yeah, honestly i feel tired inside out.

Actually, i was going to post some pictures today, but forgot the cable which connects my mobile phones to the PC. So stay tumed guys!

Bong Kanha's Wedding

Most of you may not know who she is since this
is the first post I talk about her. Keo Kanha, her
name is. She is my Senior Team Leader back at
ANZ Royal where i spent almost a year working
there.

During my time at ANZR, i still remember, at times,
i had ups and downs with her. But after all, we ended
up like sister and brother.

Last night i was invited to join the wedding party.
That was a great fun i think since lots of people from
my previous workplace were there eating, drinking
and dancing.

By looking at her smile, you guys can imagine how
happy and excited she is.



Here is her handsome man.....they really make
a good much...M so jealous....
Hey see the red flower on my shirt???? I was
one of those who helped out with the reception.